| Chapter One;Story of fairytales
ima bout to loose the guy that really ment something to me,and i dont know if its me but something inside me seys that i cant let him go.i try so hard to keep it going but i dont know if trying gets me somewhere.i put my foot down for once and opened up to him but i dont know if it was for good or bad.i prayed to the lord and he gave me a vibe to hang in there like the rest said to me & gave me another shot to work it out.something inside me has this scared feeling that whenever i think of it,it breaks me down into tears.this speshul guy is someone ive been longin for.& i spent them wonderful days ill never give up,but he said one day soon he has to get outta this place and hes gunna move away.that hit me hard i blacked out for a minute just to think what i would do without him.ive dreamth times and times for some prince charming to come into my world and take me away, take me away to a place where the only thing im worrying about is falling helplessly in luv.i've imagine it days through time even had a picture in mind,but it never came to me till this point.i counted on fairytails and books to make me feel that way one day,and when that day finally came it had to dissapear.i sat down thinkin to myself reminicing about what it was like before.it was kina like the first time you saw sunset,beautiful,sweet,&pretty.it made me wanna close my eyes and thank lord for the blessing he sent me.i just knew this day had to go down just like the sunset on a sunnyday ,but i knew it would come back,but i didnt wait for it to go down i waited for it to last.some people dont believe in miricals but people like me do maybe one day that sunset would just set in the sky and stay,just like i want this relationship to be. and i know im hard on myself cause i dont wanna be put through this but i just dont wanna experience of an ending in a book,cause i know theres a chapter in our hearts that will keep us surviving.
Chapter 2;Story of fairytales
another day has passed & i havent talked to him.i needa hang in there and stick through this.who knows when ill have a chance to prove to him that im strong and i wont give up.sometimes people tell me day by day just beat it you cant be with him forever might as well let it go. but you know what i just dont care what you think or say cause im not gunna leave his sight,i promised ill be here for him through his deepest problems,and ill never break that promise.im going to show you guys that im not gunna fail and make the mistake ive did to others cause i relized that theres only going to be one chance out there in life to prove your self that your a better person,and hey why cant that moment be now.i know that he knows that deep inside i wont hurt him purposely thats what keeps me strong ,the thought he has faith in me.theres going to be a day where ima say to myself ive made a decion where i cant handle,but this time its gunna be different im a changed person.he made me see that i can believe in myself,and that sometimes when you do things on your own you just gotta support it or it'll never come through. its kinna like snow coming down on a sunny day impossible but it has hope that one day it may come.thats what i feel like us being the same like before impossible but it can come true.hope is what keeps me standing thats why when days come by i dont try to cry i just try to dry them eyes cause one day we'll both see that were gunna get through it. |
this birthday was the greatest,cause i spent it with my family and my long lost friend .haha! yeah i had a kick back at night. ate a whole bunch! and i just loved it!
. then i just stayed home till like 8pm.then i went to rex's & roxy's house cause they was having a party,saw people i havent seen in awhile huh?.yeap met there cousins. there pretty cool.it was soo halarious huh guys? to bad jp didnt go that ass haha lazy ! we didnt want him there anyways ! left around 1;30am. cause rex's moma[tee-tah] said it was errly to leave at 12;50. hehe .& oh yes i got some hook ups at robinson's may. haha! right?! prolly go there soon since i get like 25% off everytime i go and buy something.